Friday, January 7, 2011

Intolerance

"Intolerance closes us off from seeing things in new ways, from going beyond the limitations of our past, & from finding new, more resourceful ways of relating to others."
Debbie Ford

Blessings:)
Amy

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Post Received on Facebook Today

Hi all,

This quote was on a friend's Facebook page today and I had to copy it! Here it is:

"I don't think the worst thing that could happen to me is having a child with special needs. I think the worst thing would be to raise a child who is cruel to people with special needs." ~ Matthew Mickelson Butman

I say Amen! Too bad I know some kids like this. We also know some great kids who have been raised to be kind, compassionate, inclusive too. It just amazes me though the number of kids I hear about or read on Facebook (yes, I monitor my son's page and his friends too!) that make ignorant comments and I think, "boy, your parents must be SO proud of you!" UGH! Today, I saw a FB post on a page of one of Nick's friends (who is a sweet girl and great friend to Nick) that said "Wow... look like one of those special kids on the back of the short bus..." in response to a cute picture she put on her FB page. (And by the way, this friend of Nick's and I send messages to each other on FB usually about Nick because she "friend requested" me.)Just one example but these are the kind of things I unfortunately hear about all too frequently.

It's good to be aware and I feel passionate about this kind of thing, obviously, so I had to write about it. Good quote though, huh?

Blessings:)
Amy

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Word DO Hurt

Hi all,

You know that saying, "Sticks and stones will break my bones but words (or names) will never hurt me" ? Well, I say that is a bunch of BULL!!!!! (excuse the language-that's the kindest word I could think of to use!)

Not only have I been Nick's Mom, the mother of a child with disabilities, for 17 years now, I've worked with individuals with disabilities and their families off and on in a variety of capacities for 20 years. I've spoken with hundreds of individuals with disabilities and their families. So, I base what I'm saying on not only OUR experience, but the things I've learned from others as well.

I've said this before, but when a person had a disability, it not only affects them (primarily) but it impacts everyone in the family. I've also said before, we consider ourselves (Greg, Nick, Bella, and myself) a "team", not just a family. When one of us is hurt, we all hurt. Over the years, we've experience countless things. Nick individually, us with Nick, and Isabella even has experienced people's ignorance, calling Nick names, teasing him, saying insensitive things or excluding him. I could write a post or at least the chapter of a book recounting these incidents and I think people would be shocked at much of it. Nick would say and we'd agree that the physical and medical things he's been through have been tough, but the people's words have been even more difficult to endure. Word stick with you. My personal opinion is that words, things people say, are personally far worse to deal with and forget than anything else a person can endure. And, yes, we take then personally. How can you NOT take it personally when you are human and have human feelings and people are talking about you or someone you love? We can't. Social issues have been a much more difficult problem and challenge for Nick to deal with than the physical/medical stuff consistently, and at every stage.

Words DO hurt, worse than anything else and they stick with you for the rest of your life. You can deal with it, forgive, move on, but you never forget them and they shape you, sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse, into the person you currently are. That is something I KNOW to be true for Nick and for all of us in this family, and in my opinion, for everyone.

Words cannot be taken back or changed, or heal like a physical wound. So, for all of these experiences Nick has had and we've had with him over the years, most of them come from people outside of the family. I've spoken to so many families who have told me stories of how their families have not included their child with disabilities and were ignorant and said or did hurtful things. I couldn't believe it and I felt so lucky because we did not have that happen at all for many years. Our families do include Nick and for the most part, they get it and understand. Especially our parents, well, they REALLY get it and have been there consistently.

For Nick, the first experience he had from a person he was close to was with a neighbor boy who was his close friend for years. He lived across the street and would be over our house almost every day when school was not in. This boy declared he Nick would be his "best friend forever". Then, as kids do, he got older and the difference was, he could go and and do things that Nick couldn't do, so over time, he kind of "outgrew" Nick and left Nick here with no explanation and no longer included Nick in what he did. It left Nick hurt, angry, sad. (and us too) In his case, he didn't hurt Nick with words but the social rejection was so hurtful. Nick has two cousins who are close to him in age and who he was really close to, would do things with, and when we had family get togethers, etc., they would be inseparable. Then they also grew up, as they should, and outgrew Nick. They basically started doing things that Nick couldn't do, with their friends, etc., which is normal and understandable, but what also happened is that even at family get togethers, they would not talk to Nick, play with him, etc. They still don't give him the time of day most of time. Nick has shared with us MANY times now much this has hurt him and it was at this time that we started to understand that the things that other families were telling me were now coming true for Nick/us. We get it now. You expect those things (unfortunately) from others to some extent but we didn't expect Nick to be excluded within his own family in that way, that for a teen, is devastating.

Then over Christmas this year, Nick had family member(s) say something that was VERY hurtful about Nick and even though it was said to be "out of concern" for Nick, what was said was hurtful and mean. One of the most hurtful things about it from Nick's perspective is, he said that one of these family members did not even speak to him until it was to say good-bye at the end of the night, not one word, and they usually don't give him the time of day, yet came to me and said these really hurtful things. Like Nick said, if they were so concerned about me, why don't they even look at me or talk to me? I thought he had a great point. Now these words that were said have not only hurt us (Greg, Nick, and myself), but we know now how these people see Nick (in not a favorable way). It really ruined the get together for me. I tried to keep a good face on for the kids but it was so hard. Greg and I decided to just spend the rest of the holidays on our own, just the four of us and the kids agreed to spend New Years just the four of us. It felt good because we didn't have to worry about being hurt by anyone ignoring Nick or saying anything hurtful.

So, words DO hurt and the intentions behind them hurt when people exclude and ignore you yet have an opinion about you. Did I vent a little by writing about this? Sure. Did I write about it to share with other families, YES. Just as so many families have shared these hurts with me over the years and I didn't REALLY understand it until it happened to us. Now I get it. As always, this will not get us, Team Hyndman, down for long. We know as long as we have each other, we'll be OK and we are excited for 2011 and to see what it brings. We expect it to be a year of change and transition for Nick especially with his graduation, starting college we hope, and turning 18 in August. So many changes but we're doing it all together!:)

Blessings:)
Amy

Happy New Year 2011

Hi all,

Happy New Year from Team Hyndman! We hope 2011 brings everyone good health and happiness.

It's been awhile since I posted for several reasons. I'm sure the holidays are so busy for everyone and they were for us! We all had "BUGS" (sinus infections, colds, etc.) for several weeks in December and Greg and I were REALLY sick, and still dealing with the last lingering symptoms. Luckily the kids were doing better by the time the holidays actually hit. Greg had to work a lot this year over the holidays. He got a few days off but we had to be creative in our own family celebration. We were able to pull off some special time together for celebrating that was actually very nice!

In December Isabella had a violin concert at school and we were amazed how good she and her classmates are doing with strings for just starting when school started this year. She really loves it. The concert was beautiful. They had the high school strings group play and they were REALLY good! Nick had wrestling and then he and many of the other team members got "mat rash" after a big tournament and Nick is still getting rid of his. This was a first experience for us with anything like this. We know it's part of wrestling and other sports but we can't way we love this part of it! So, Nick is still sitting it out and hopefully he'll be ready to wrestle again soon. I know he's anxious to get back into it. The kids got to celebrate our niece Lucie's third birthday and unfortunately, Greg and I were too sick to go. The kids also went with my Mom and Dad and their cousins to visit my brother Jimmie and Mike at their cottage in Indiana and they got to stay in a hotel, swim, and just have fun with their cousins!

One of the big things that happened in December is that Nick got his Drivers License the Wednesday before Christmas! We are so thankful to the driving instructor from Capabilities, Greg, who helped Nick to accomplish this goal! Now, we just have to get a vehicle with a lift for him so he can drive and go places on his own. For now, he'll have to drive with us or someone else still as he cannot get his wheelchair in and out of the van by himself. So, this is something we're going to be working on and hope to get an adapted vehicle for him in the next 6-12 months. (it's $8000-$12000 for the cost of the accommodations he needs!) We are SO proud of Nick for not giving up when he so many obstacles and extra steps/hoops to jump through to accomplish this goal. Even when Greg and I were so frustrated, he remained positive and didn't give up. We are SO proud of him for that!

Bella got another turtle to keep Shelly company. She named him Sheldon. They are really cute and I actually like them so much more than I thought I would. They're smart and Bella is really good at taking care of them!

We also went to The Nutcracker in December and our niece Maddie had two parts in it. We had seats right up front in the middle. It was fantastic, really beautiful!

I am going to write another post to talk about this some more but some of the holidays were not so great for us. Because of that, we decided just to close ranks, stick together and spend New Years Eve alone, just the four of us doing our own thing. It was PERFECT and just what we needed. Things always seem better when we're together and when we're hurting, time doing our own thing just makes things seem OK. We ended up having a great dinner, watching a movie and brought in the New Year TOGETHER which is the most important thing to us.

So, that's the update for the past month. I will be posting more regularly again and we hope 2011 is a great year for all of us!

Blessings:)
Amy

PS- We have some good friends who received some devastating health news just before the holidays so we have them and a family member dealing with cancer, surgery, and treatment this month and for the next several months at least. We are keeping them in our prayers and ask anyone who is willing to do the same. Never give up faith or hope!

toledoblade.com -- The Blade ~ Toledo Ohio

toledoblade.com -- The Blade ~ Toledo Ohio

Hi all,

A thought-provoking article in The Blade yesterday. Made me cringe to read how individuals with disabilities were looked at back then and I wish I could say thing have changed completely but they haven't. Maybe we've come a long way, but there is still a long way to go. I love learning about the history of the disability rights movement.

Blessings:)
Amy